Argh.

Its just heart-breaking.
It's like i have been through it. and I learnt it all.
in fact I have learnt so much that I find it hard to relate to those my age.
So i just keep denying myself. keeping my comments to myself.
i know there are others out there who share similar passions as me.
Those who reside in the house of God.

So everyday in school it is almost like a struggle.
All i can do is cling on to God. for if not i'll be swept away by the current
all the things that displeases God. But strength will rise as we wait upon the lord.

and all i want to see is my friends saved and God glorified.
The lord is teaching me what it means to deny myself.
and it's eating into me so badly, it feels like i'm literally dying.
dying to myself. I can't describe how much I have been going through this year.
but i really want to thank God for opening doors to my friends in church.

people who really would know what i mean when i say, I am desperate to see
my friends saved. to share the same sentiments. It's past mid year.
and Calvin Kang has left. there goes my way out. It's always when god takes away christian friends that i seem to struggle.

whatever it is, I know they are what i need, and they will be with me throughout eternity.
:D

praise the Lord, His Holy and Mighty and majestic name.
For no one who is proud is able to come before him
no one who is not willing to shamed, is fit for glorifying God.

amen!